Hello lovely people! How’s it going?? Late post this week, I know. I’m trying to be better but life happens (that’s code for I was lazy). I had a rather odd week and I don’t remember a lot of it. I wasn’t drunk, I promise. I just slept a lot more than usual and was a lot more relaxed about a lot of things that I’d usually worry about for ages, which was nice but also uncomfortable for the reason that I’m a chronic worrier and I always find something to worry about even when there is isn’t but that’s a whole other story.
I started this week feeling very high from all the sleep this past weekend. You guys, sleep is my new drug! I also did something very naughty! I bought a new book on Sunday last week which I read slowly, making sure it did not interfere with school. It’s such a beautifully written book and the author Chibundu Onuzo wrote it at 17/18; she’s 22 now. It’s a fascinating story and I’m hopeful I’ll be able to do a review soon-ish. The book, by the way is The Spider King’s Daughter. So, throughout this entire week, I was so nervous about getting the results from my pathology test last week and I’m pleased to say I passed, guys! This past week, everyone in my group has been crazy/amazing/cool. I love those children so much and I’m so thankful for them. They make every day exciting and happy and all that good stuff. The only thing is now they always want to be on medic talk. Whenever something happens, “put it on medic talk o!” *side eye* I smell fame whores. This happened on Monday (don’t ask me for explanations);
On Tuesday, I posted a short story!! After what felt like forever, I got my act together and completed one. It felt so good! I can’t even explain. I was so nervous about whether people would like the story as much as I liked it or whether I was losing my ability to create art the only way I know how to. If you missed it, you can read it here. ALSO, my story got featured (I don’t know the right word) on The Naked Convos and you can read it here. I’m so grateful that Mr 0toxic reached out to me for that. I was really excited because I think TNC is just amazing. Anyway, I’m done gushing. On Friday, we got to check up on post-op patients as part of our surgery classes and being in the hospital just makes you grateful for health! All I can say is be thankful, take your health seriously. If you notice that something in your body feels wrong, please, please see a doctor! You cannot be too careful about health and things escalate quickly within our bodies; it’s ridiculous how quickly a chain of deadly reactions could be kick-started. Friday was a true lesson on why I should worry less, why humans should worry less. Like all the tests my group mates and I studied for did not happen! Especially the scariest one on Topographical Anatomy. I’d have loved to have written it though, after all the hours of sleep I gave up to study but the point is, we cannot predict how things will go, therefore, we should learn to stop worrying about things we have no control over and just do our part. It was a lesson, especially for me.
The title of this post is from something my friend Ivomah said on Friday. She said “this weekend, I need to press pause”. It’s amazing how it feels like my life is spiralling out of my control this year. Relax, I mean like there’s so much to do that by Friday, you’re just like “What even happened this week? What did I do?” because you’re so lost in the routine and monotony of it all. It’s really just for this one year and that’s what I tell myself when it feels too much. I try to keep my eyes on the prize because next year will be better. However, I need to live. To press pause when I can, see people I care about, hear how their life is going. I’m trying to find that line between being dedicated to school and my goals and just being plain self-absorbed, because like it or not, there is a line and as cliche as it seems, there’s more to life than studying or working or trying to make it “big”. There’s the little things that no amount of money can buy and I’m deciding to take a breather once in a while (when I can) to press pause.
And for all my friends, in case you still haven’t figured it out;
Sooo, I pressed pause this weekend with one of my favorite people- my cousin. We ate ourselves senseless in one fancy restaurant and then proceeded to waddle to the mall where they were having massive sales. I promise I didn’t buy a lot. x_x I did have a glass of fancy white wine in one of the most exquisite wine glasses that reminded me of Olivia Pope.
However, due to my pressed pause, I have to cook and study today and honestly, I don’t regret it. Did I mention that I had this burrito that I will be dreaming about for a very long time?? Well, I did. My whole point, in case you didn’t get it is that we need to make time for things that matter most, even if they don’t earn us millions of dollars.
I hope everyone has a great week ahead! Let us all try to worry less and press pause from time to time.
Love, burritos and the pause button, Afoma. xx