Hey guys! I feel like I haven’t done one of those weekly journals in forever and its about time I said just a little bit about what’s been going on. Like I already said in my Going Home post, I’m back in Nigeria and with my family and that has been so nice, you have no idea. There has been food, malt, family and happily, good internet so yay. Of course there’s been humidity and mosquitoes too, but it’s all good.
I attended a traditional marriage this past weekend and it was so exciting to see so much culture and color. I loved it. For some reason, writing hasn’t quite been as easy as I’d like it to be. I can’t exactly explain, but I think it has to do with being generally unsatisfied with a lot of what I’ve written if they’re non fiction or feeling too exposed when I try to write about things that are personal. You know when you try to explain something and you feel like you’re not doing it justice or the person won’t understand just how important it is to you. That’s a bit of how I’ve been feeling. So I figured I’d go back to the basics: sharing. When I started this blog, it was a way to share fragments of my life and sort of learn from talking about them. Therapy, in a way. My thoughts feel jumbled a lot, but then I write and it’s all there, spelled out word for word and I find a little more meaning than when it was all bits and pieces in my head. I also want to use this opportunity to thank all those who keep coming back and commenting and sharing. You’re amazing. I should totally do a thank you blog post to thank every single person. Yes, I’ll do that.
I’ve learned a few lessons these past few weeks as well, being home and having to communicate with so many people again especially my family, face to face and living with them. Trust me, it’s a huge difference from living with one flatmate. I’m learning to say things. I seem to have mastered the art of telling other people when I’m offended or uncomfortable but it was harder with my family. I’m learning to not go with the frown and hope it passes route and just say as nicely as possible why I’m upset. Now, I know some people do just fine saying how they feel. I do well writing it, but trust me, I’m not articulate while vocally expressing emotions. My mother is like ‘say what you need to say and forget about it’, my personality is more like ‘stew, stew, stew, mumble, stew about mumbling, forget it’, a few times I take the ‘write about it’ route. But I’d like to think there’s been progress from two years ago or even last year. I’ve actually been speaking up this year and saying things I feel and what not.
Thinking about it now, I suspect the same thing was almost happening to my writing. Less personal stuff and more fiction. I like fiction, but some real stuff isn’t bad either. Plus, it’s been harder to write personal stuff because I see a ton of people who read my posts, every week! I’m terrified of people unraveling the mystery that it me. Lol, joke.
Well, away from heavier stuff, there’s been so much drama in the world lately from the Zimmerman verdict to the Child bride issue in Nigeria to Cory Monteith’s death to the birth of the Royal baby, I hope everyone has been great. I needed this cyber rant so don’t think I’m mentally unstable or something; it’s not that serious.
There’s two things I can remember off my Summer Bucketlist that I haven’t done yet: driving and studying. I haven’t studied one thing all summer and I only partially regret it. The other part of me is like ‘whatever’. But I’ll try to remedy that situation as soon I can though. I have a few pictures in the spirit of sharing.